This is the only place I can do this.

No one I can talk to about how I ‘feel’. Why? I don’t know, hard to explain really. It’s a lot of emotions. Excitement, happiness, and well feely feels.
I hide them, because well as a thought exterior I put out. Inside I’m just as vulnerable as the next guy. I can hide what I feel easy because well that’s all I have practiced doing.

Now, if I put myself out there rejection is a very real, scary, hurtful thing. I don’t want that.
I mean, I am a fun loving person. I don’t say hurtful things I don’t lie ever, because well there’s no point in lies if eventually the truth emerges.
Inside is a different person though. Not much as a difference as I am on the outside, but more or less of how I put myself out there. I hate taking risks, if it means I might lose someone or even worse, create a crack in an awesome friendship.

I am just rambling on lol, I fucking hate that. I can tell anything on here because well it won’t get read, not by the people I write about at least.
I don’t make myself hard to find, but also at the same time I doubt they take the time to look.
It’s as simple as writing my username. I use it for almost everything lol.
I play with fire, because I like to live dangerously lol.

That is all. M
Excuse the typos, I’ll come back and correct them later.
S.H.V.